Blonde Mafia Ganja Island

Weather's been pretty nice over the last couple of days. MS will come sunbathe with me tomorrow. Oh happy day! I'm so tired of constantly running somewhere or doing something, now I can finally relax, go buy some unhealthy crap and lay on the grass/sand with my homeboy and chill with some extra loud reggaeton playing in the backround. :)
Yesterday I was at my MO's (the boy) place and we grilled, chilled and watched the sun set and come up again with some of his buddies from Saku.
What is it with Saku? It seems like everybody is suddenly from Saku. I spent Jaanip�ev in Saku and now I went on the beach at 4 am to see some very drunk Saku people swim with their clothes on.
I finally bought the ticket to Portugal. I'll be away from 9th of July to 5th of August. I just found out from F that Nouvelle Vague is performing in Porto on the 11th of July. Halle-fucking-luujah! Life couldn't seriously be any better. Nouvelle Vague is my ultimate favourite band. "Dance with me" is my personal anthem and now I'm gonna see them! Ticket is only 40 euros so that's not a problem either! I'm so happy I'm gonna do a summersault right now! :D
Okay...I'm never gonna be THAT happy. XD

Seems like I wont be able to finish driving school before going to Portugal though. Effin teacher was away for a week and fucked all my plans. But that's what an average Estonian man always does - he fucks your plans.
Anyway, whatever. I was depressed for a day but then I got over it. I'm gonna come back in August and see what happens. Besides I gotta learn parallel parking with F. XD
I hope Portuguese police is a bunch of friendly chaps. XD

Singing Festival is on the 5th of July. I'm gonna go and see my little B standing in the front frow singing her lungs out. Then I'm gonna grab some extra greasy meatballs with extra greasy potatoes and some suspicious ketchup and head to a greener spot of the hillside to sit and enjoy it all. If all goes well I'll manage to get really drunk by the time they start signing patriotic songs at the end of it all, round 19, and I can pretend I know all the words.
Like what the hell. I can honestly say that all my friends know some Estonian songs by heart, like some weird Ivo Linna or Vello Orumets songs, but I don't. I don't know any.
I wasn't interested when I was younger and I'm sure not interested in it now. Yeah, my dad listened to all sorts of Estonian songs when I was younger, but I didn't really pay attention. I can say I'm the least patriotic person I know.
I LOVE Estonia. But only one specific spot at one specific time at one specific person. And that's it.

No news from Italy either. I should be going there in September, but they haven't even signed any papers. Well, grazie Antonio, grazie Julia, for doing absolutely nothing. Everybody keeps saying it's how Italians run their things, but I'd apprecciate if they'd put a bit more effort into it.
I wonder how people can do business with them. It would absolutely kill me. I would totally fail. If you don't get things done before a deadline then you fall into debts and that's it.

I downloaded MSN messenger for B today. And dads laptop has a mic so me and B can call eachother when we are apart and talk. :) I'm so happy!
I will call her from Portugal!
And I'll try to get her a webcam before I go to Italy. I can't really imagine being away from her for such a long time. :(
Anyway, we'll see. It may happen that Giuseppe and Maria decide they don't want me in Sicily after all.

Yesterday my grandmother (fathers mom) came here and visited us. She's lookin' sharp as always. Later I sent her on the train and as I was watching it disappear behind the trees, I was listening to Frank Sinatra singing "What'll I do"

Whatll I do
When you are far away
And I am blue
Whatll I do?

I can't imagine my life without her. I liked how we walked to the station and she held me under my arm. The whole day was very beautiful. :)

I'd upload some pics but photobucket is acting like an average Estonian man. :P

So, eventhough I've got lots of things to worry about and I'm far from just relaxin'....
LET THE SUMMER BEGIN!

... party party party.

Will you be lookin' for me in the mornin'? :)

Happy birthday my beautiful grandmother. She has never ever said a bad word to me. Never.
She has a very pure heart. So good. Through and through.
I wish I would be more like you.
I love you.

Okay, as always, I managed to get reaaaaaaaaallllly sick. I had like 38c fever and my throat was so swollen I couldn't breathe. The same thing I had back in October when B was in hospital with it in Turkey. Horrible shit.

So now I'm pretty much okay. Took me about 5 days and a lot of inhalation to get over it.
Mom went to Finland on the weekend. I changed my ticket, going next Saturday. Anyway when mom got back then she run into my room and started talking what she did and what she bought. And she was like: So I tried all these clothes on and tried to imagine if they would fit you. But the clothes this season are SOOOO stupid. They wouldn't suit you at all - you put them all and your boobs are totally out or they just wont fit!

XD XD I was like: Geeeee mom I know!!!

I've been tryin' to tell some of my friends just to, you know, have the girly whine on how I hate the clothes and dresses right now. I put them on and my breasts look like I'm about to nurse a fucking baby or something.
And then my friends have this annoyed look on their faces like, jesus, lose some weight or something then. XD
These are the moments when you realize what the saying- best friends look alike- means. Like seriously, you need somebody to have the same body measures to really understand the deal. Unfortunately my friends are like from Americas Next Top Model.
I'm sure they have their own problems and they can chat about them best with other ANTM's.

It's just that the world is so unfair. I feel really bad when out of 20 things that I try on, everything looks bad on me, because I am a woman. And I'm not 190cm, I don't have flat stomach and ribs that show, without breasts NOR ass.
This is not beautiful, isn't it?
I don't know. Maybe it is and the world is fucked for me. But I feel stressed, I feel fat. I disgust myself and I wanna go home and cry the whole night. And there's nobody to comfort me.

I don't wanna be sad in shops. And I don't want to have ANTM's in these stores roll their eyes when I can't shop in 2,5 minutes and put on everything I want and show my ribs.

I really like the look I have though. I've never been completely frustrated with it. There are moments when I hate myself, like every girl. And these moments happen basically every day. But when it comes to me and the opposite sex, then I feel really good. I like to be a woman. I like men.
I like how clothes can compliment your body and how jewelry rests on your glowing skin. I think I'm definitely a sensual type of woman. At least more sensual than ...somebody who is not sensual at all. XD lol I like being sexy and I'm not giving up on life. Just jesus fucking christ, there's this shop where they sell lingerie, the whole shop is totally full of it. Rows and rows of beautiful lingerie. At all they have is A cup. Or occasionally some B cups. WTF?!
I'm not somebody who has huge breasts. No, fuck, I'm a normal girl. WTF
Just I don't understand this world. And shops with number 32-34 jeans make me tired. And sad.
I know that some of the people I've spoken to have the same problem, so here I am, just speaking out loud.
If you didn't like it then please just go read news or something.

I'm sure one day I'll write about it in a really funny and witty way, but today I'm just a bit frustrated. Nevertheless, happy with who I am. :)

Well, miau... :)

Tra le nuvole e i sassi passano i sogni di tutti (Ligabue)
passa il sole ogni giorno senza mai tardare. (Tiziano Ferro)
Dove sar� domani? (Enrico Ruggeri)
Dove sar�? (Gianni Morandi)
Tra le nuvole e il mare c'� una stazione di posta (Franco Battiato)
uno straccio di stella messa l� a consolare (Massimo Ranieri)
sul sentiero infinito (Max Pezzali)
del maestrale (Eugenio Finardi)
Day by day (Zucchero)
Day by day (Cesare Cremonini)
hold me shine on me. (Zucchero)
shine on me (Cesare Cremonini)
Day by day save me shine on me (Zucchero, Carmen Consoli, Mauro Pagani, Cesare Cremonini, Eugenio Finardi)
Ma domani, domani, domani, lo so (Francesco Renga)
Lo so che si passa il confine, (Roberto Vecchioni)
E di nuovo la vita (Mauro Pagani)
sembra fatta per te (Giuliano Palma)
e comincia (Elio)
domani (Elio e Le Storie Tese, Vittorio Cosma )
domani � gi� qui (Jovanotti)

rap 1 Estraggo un foglio nella risma nascosto scrivo e non riesco forse perch� il sisma mha scosso (Caparezza)
rap 2 Ogni vita che salvi, ogni pietra che poggi, fa pensare a domani ma puoi farlo solo oggi (Frankie Hi Energy)

e la vita la vita si fa grande cos� (Gianluca Grignani)
e comincia domani (Giuliano Sangiorgi)
Tra le nuvole e il mare si pu� fare e rifare (Claudio Baglioni)
con un p� di fortuna (Ron)
si pu� dimenticare. (Luca Carboni)
Dove sar� (Baustelle)
domani? Dove sar�? (Samuele Bersani e Baustelle)
oh oh oh (coro: Carmen Consoli, Antonella Ruggiero, Alioscia, Pacifico, Mango, Massimo Ranieri, Bluvertigo, Nek, Giuliano Palma, Antonello Venditti, Roberto Vecchioni, Albano)

rap 3 Dove sar� domani che ne sar� dei miei sogni infranti, dei miei piani
Dove sar� domani, tendimi le mani, tendimi le mani (Marracash)

Tra le nuvole e il mare si pu� andare e andare (Laura Pausini)
sulla scia delle navi di l� del temporale (Carmen Consoli)
e qualche volta si vede (Nek)
domani (Antonello Venditti)
una luce di prua (Nek)
e qualcuno grida: Domani (Antonello Venditti)

rap 4 Come laquila che vola
libera tra il cielo e i sassi siamo sempre diversi e siamo sempre gli stessi,
hai fatto il massimo e il massimo non � bastato e non sapevi piangere e adesso
che hai imparato non bastano le lacrime ad impastare il calcestruzzo
eccoci qua cittadini dAbruzzo
e aumentano dintensit� le lampadine una frazione di
secondo prima della finee la tua mamma,
la tua patria da ricostruire,
comu le scole, le case e specialmente lu core
e puru nu postu cu facimu lamore
(Jovanotti, J Ax, Fabri Fibra e in chiusura Sud Sound System)

non siamo cos� soli (Giuliano Sangiorgi)
a fare castelli in aria (J Ax e Fabri Fibra)
non siamo cos� soli (Giuliano Sangiorgi)
sulla stessa barca (J Ax , Fabri Fibra)
non siamo cos� soli (Giorgia)
a fare castelli in aria (J Ax e Fabri Fibra)
non siamo cos� soli (Giorgia)
a stare bene in Italia (J Ax e Fabri Fibra)
sulla stessa barca (J Ax)
a immaginare un nuovo giorno in Italia (Giorgia, Giusy Ferreri, Dolcenera, Mario Venuti, Jovanotti, J Ax, Fabri Fibra)
Tra le nuvole e il mare si pu� andare, andare
Sulla scia delle navi di l� dal temporale (Piero Pel�)
Qualche volta si vede una luce di prua e qualcuno grida, domani (Morgan)
Non siamo cos� soli (Giorgia, Mario Venuti, Giusy Ferreri, Dolcenera, Giuliano Sangiorgi)
(tromba solo di Roy Paci)
Domani � gi� qui
Domani � gi� qui (Jovanotti, Marracash, FabriFibra, J Ax)
(Assolo violino Mauro Pagani)
Ma domani domani, domani lo so, lo so, che si passa il confine (Gianna Nannini)
E di nuovo la vita sembra fatta per te e comincia (Elisa)
domani (Sud Sound System)
Tra le nuvole e il mare, si pu� fare e rifare
Con un p� di fortuna si pu� dimenticare (Manuel Agnelli Afterhours)
E di nuovo la vita, sembra fatta per te (Mango)
E comincia (Niccol� Fabi)
(coro finale)
domani
E domani domani, domani lo so
Lo so che si passa il confine
E di nuovo la vita sembra fatta per te
E comincia domani
(Manuel Agnelli, Dolcenera, Zucchero, Niccol� Fabi, Pacifico, Giusy Ferreri, Alioscia, Pacifico, Max Pezzali, Caparezza, Niccol� Agliardi, Luca Carboni, Roy Paci, Tricarico, Ron, Giuliano Sangiorgi, negramaro, Negrita, Giorgia, Francesco Renga, Malika Ayane, Laura Pausini, Morgan, Jovanotti, Massimo Ranieri, Nek, Enrico Ruggeri, Piero Pel�, Antonello Venditti, Roberto Vecchioni, Carmen Consoli, Mango, Cesare Cremonini, Saturnino)
Domani � gi� qui, domani � gi� qui (Jovanotti)

I found out that you can't put frozen dumplings on a hot frying pan with olive oil and expect them to turn into amazingly well cooked tasty plateful.
Nope, instead they burn into little black nuts. Which isn't my idea of a dinner.

I've been translating with P for the past week. We translated this long long long ding dong text about cardiovascular disease. It's more boring than you'd think.
Almost every day for 5-6 hours. I hope it's done now because I have to do my school driving theory exam on Friday and I'm studying for it constantly. Sucks.

So... what else.. Ah, yes I celebrated my 20th birthday the other day. I read from WW's blog that there are supposed to be some kind of rules which prohibit you from writing about it. But there aren't. So if you wanna hear about the revelry, then better hold your breath and hope that she'll write something coz I'm obviously too lazy plus I have memory problems.
I can only tell you about the day after, when I got up and found out that for some unknown reason the whole kitchen was covered with whipped cream. 0_o

On Saturday I'm going to Finland. Just booked the tickets. P called and said she wants to buy Sims 3 and my mom said she wants to go shopping, and I was like, okay then. We'll see. I'm already regretting having invited mom, but well, life with dad isn't the most interesting thing in the world so I kinda felt sorry for her.

On Sunday I'm gonna have my navel pierced again. The piercing is supposed to grow out in 3 years. Mine grew out in 2. So now I'm gonna go and let them hurt me again. Oh boy it's horrible. After it you can't sit, breathe, eat or sleep.

MR (too many M's in da neighborhood)just won a horseback riding tournament. She has always has it in her, I'm telling ya. GO YOU!
And we were discussing how we should meet coz she has LOADS of stuff to tell me and I have ... well.... nothing to tell her :D BUT I have Johnny Depp films and that definitely counts for something, right?!

By the way, something funny I read. RULES THAT GUYS WISHED WOMEN KNEW:
14. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
and
20. Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.

XD

And here's a little one-on-one gay action with Bruno:
http://www.dlisted.com/node/32308

I've been sunbathing the past couple of days. Burnt my chest and my arms. Now they are red and itchy.
The funny thing is that the first thing that actually gets tanned are my legs. The rest of the body gets tanned slower. I love sun, but I think I have to take a break coz I don't wanna over do it.
Well, I heard it's gonna be 8 degrees (EIGHT) on Thursday and heavy rain for a week, so that's summer for you.

5th of July is the singing festival, everybody who doesn't have tickets yet, go and buy.
I'm in 400 eek, sector B.

So, happy birthday to everyone who has a birthday today. Everybody else - enjoy the first of June!

Ps. Sun comes up at 04:17 am and sets at 22:20 pm :) Pretty amazing!




"Iz tooooo hot..."